So I need to vent for a second. My feelings are really hurt. I know part of me is being dramatic but I can’t help it. I am about to get vulnerable, so buckle up.
We aren’t doing a bridal party. I don’t want the drama of picking out bridesmaid dresses or having people stand next to me that may not even be my friend in two years. I don’t have a lot of close girl friends so I don’t have a ton of people to ask anyways. We are doing a maid of honor and best man and that’s that.
My maid of honor has been my best friend for 12 years (almost). We’ve gone through it ALL together. From bad breakups to family troubles, we have truly been to hell and back together. But for the past year or so we have kind of drifted apart. She has a new boyfriend who I don’t 100% love. Nothing wrong with him he just dulls her sparkle a bit you know?
Every year, during the summer, her family goes out of the country for a couple of months to visit relatives. Well, she is gone right in the middle of the most important part of wedding planning. Putting my selfishness aside for a minute, her cousin got engaged a couple days ago. She is more excited for his wedding (which isn’t even planned yet) than mine.
I know I sound so selfish and jealous but my feelings are hurt. I feel like I’m second best and no one should feel that way about their wedding. Especially by someone who is standing next to you on one of the most important days of your life. The last time I confronted her about something that bothered me it ended in a really big fight where we didn’t talk for several weeks. Do I confront her about my feelings and risk that happening again? Should I get over myself? Pick a new maid of honor? Any and all advice is welcome.
If you too struggle with feeling second best, I feel you. I commiserate with you and I am a failure freak with you.